We Don't Know What We Don't Know

[Cheryl]

I just spent a very pleasant hour with my son. He was in a chatty mood, and reflecting on his life as an addict. When I told him that I had been somewhat caught off guard a few years ago when I first heard the expression, "Addiction is a family disease", my immediate response was, "But I'm not the addict." And then I described that I had begun to realize how sick I really had become, to which my son responded, "Yeah, at the time, I thought you were crazier than me, but now I realize that I was just numbed out on drugs and, unlike me, you had to feel the pain without being on drugs." I used to wonder how my sweet son had become so cold and cruel.

Sometimes, we don't know what we don't know.

Cheryl

[evergrowing]

I was so sick too. I never thought I would turn into such a raving lunatic. It has been such a gift to take responsibility for myself, for my words, actions and decisions. I felt like such a victim but I had no idea that I was part of the madness.

It's so good that you and your son can talk so openly. I feel like that has been part of the healing for my husband and I. Thanks for sharing.