DianeB wrote:I thank you all so dearly for all of your love and
support.
Sadness is a part of life. I haven't found a way to
eradicate it from my life.
I have found that I can feel it, I can allow it to simply
"be" in me. It is OK. It is a feeling, not a fact. I have
learned to give myself the gift of feeling those feelings
because I know that I will come out the other side.
For so many years, I wallowed in my feelings. Or I tried
to ignore them. I tried to eat them away. I have learned
to love being able to name and feel them.
I felt them the other night. I allowed them to be. I went
to bed and came to the morning refreshed and ready to
start another day. Those feeling did indeed pass.
I think sometimes that people believe if you are working
a good strong program, if your ALO is in recovery, that
there should be no sadness, no grief, no fear, no unhappiness
in your life. Not so....there is all of that. My program is how
I learn to work through those things. And work through them
I do!!
Hugs...my friends!
One of the things I really appreciate about you is you could set yourself up as a governor here, but you espouse the steps by serving and you don't keep your dirty laundry to yourself so any on us inclined to glom on to one who is so wise get to see that even the wisest must work the program. When you tell us your struggles, I am reminded that you are just like the rest of us, just trying to get healed. Not that I would wish trials and tribulations on any of us, but seeing it in you, I can't put on that "authority" throne and I don't think that would be any good for me and thee.
I do hope happier moments are coming too.