the quiet of today

[dmom]

It has been so quiet. No calls or texts from my Son.
We dropped of a bag of clothes at his friends house, our son was not there but I think that is where is staying for now.
My heart is still hurting, my gut still feels like its been kicked.
Today I ate, I showered, I made my bed, went to an online meeting.
It is hard to do the Normal things when I dont know how my son is......
I am ok.
I am taking care of me the best that I can for today.
My HP is looking out for me. He has sent me love, its amazing the things that "just happen".
I have to believe my HP is looking out for my son too.
So very thankful to all of you here, thank you for the phone calls and texts. It has helped me be OK
Thank you to my sponsor.


love you all,
dmom

[Melissa]

Sometimes "quiet" can be deafening, right??
When we are used to chaos bombarding us from every direction, quiet is far from the "norm".

It has been my experience, that my son will re-appear when he needs something. For the most part, Idle chatter and just checking in are not part of an active addict's game plan.

Appreciate the quiet and continue turning each day over to your HP and your son to his HP.

Stay close, you are not alone.

(((BIG hugs)))

[Believer]

Just for today, you got through it. We know none of this is easy, we know that it is do able. Baby step by baby step we make our way through what ever life brings. Glad you are receiving support and comfort from the group. We get it, I have found that everything is harder in the beginning but becomes easier with time hope this is the case for you. We must never forget how resilient and capable they really are. Just stay close and hold onto hope.,


hugs marie

[Lyra]

HUGS we are here for you. I know how unsettling it can be when that sudden silence arises. My experience with my ALO is that his silences can be a nice break from the difficulties that come from interacting with someone in active addiction. You made it through today and you and your son are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending hugs.

[river rock]

One day at a time sweet girl. sometimes the days are
very long, but thats a good thing, that we get them.
You are using everything youve learned and showing
growth. You are doing all you can do. Keep the focus on
you ! you are sure worth it.
Love ya River rock

[pabrown]

(((Hugs))) Quiet times can be hard but you
got through it, one day at a time and one
baby step at a time. It does get easier
as time goes. Letting him find his way
is showing him how much you love and
care for him. Keep hope alive and stay
close to your HP and us.

Much Love
Patsy

[drinkingwater]

Oh yes I remember those quiet times when I didn't know where my addict was or if he was alive or dead. The silence is deafening.
I'm just so glad you are staying close and know where to come for support and hugs.

I'm sending you and your son all my good vibes and juju.

xo
Lindsey

[kathyf]

It's amazing how loud the silence is. I am having the exact same experience with my daughter. I miss her tremendously yet it's the first time in my life I have been without my children in my home. Lots to ponder.

I found with my son that as quickly and loudly as he swooshed out of my house, he returned even louder. And return he did. And again. And again. And again. He would blow in as if he'd hardly been gone and we would dance and sing and celebrate...promises would be made, boundaries forgotten, and all would be good. Then...it would start all over again. This was before Nar-Anon, though.

Keep on truckin' - you're doing great. Reach out to others - we are here for you.

Love,
Kathy