This Place Called Recovery

[Cheryl]

Dear Family,

I've loved being in this place called recovery, it has made me feel so at peace after being in such a dark place. But over the last few days and tonight, I am realizing that recovery is not a destination, there is no final leg to this journey. Rather, it is a journey that I will travel all of my life; and in this journey, there will be waves of recovery .... that what I believe to be true may be different tomorrow .... that being on this journey, I will be challenged to look into my soul and see me for who I am, for my greatest strengths and my greatest weaknesses. I thought I had taken inventory, but maybe not ... or at least not in the way that I thought that I needed to do so ... or maybe, part of being on this journey is just simply to keep growing by learning.

Cheryl

[drinkingwater]

Indeed, there is no graduation date in this program. There is no such thing as recoverED - for us and for our addicts. There is only recoverING. It's a constant learning process for me, which is good because that means I never get bored!

::hugs::
Lindsey

[Jim78]

Cheryl,

What a great post. You are right, we will always learn and grow. Although the price we have paid to get here is high, we are fortunante to be discovering our true selves. The journey continues with highs and lows and we are forever growing thanks to our HP and this program.

Jim

[meg]

I am in the middle of taking my inventory and its really starting to open up for me. I am not rushing it. I am working really hard at writing it out. I am amazed at what I am learning about myself. I find that although I started this program because of my son...I am here now because it is healing my spirit from a life time of things. And, because I am healing on the inside the world is becoming a better place. And, ya know what, my son is not better by any means....if anything its worse. But, I am better. Yes, recovery is for a life time.

[CIN1452]

Oh how I wish I could be in this "recovery" place. I'm just beginning. I have a 33 year old AS who is driving me crazy. I have allowed him to manipulate the heck out of me without even realizing it at the time. I'm now at the beginning phase of learning how to say NO and mean it. The phone calls just won't stop. Constantly wanting money...20, 30 40 whatever he thinks he can get out of me. If I don't answer my phone, the texting begins. I'm learning to just turn off my phone.