TO: Friends, family, co-workers, acquaintances, and everyone I meet in between my new daily routine.
I want to share my feeling on how I feel everyday after 3-1/2 months after Jennifer’s death.
I say this everyday to my daughter,Jennifer too.
Please Don't tell me you know how I feel, Unless you have lost your child too,
Please don't tell me my broken heart will heal, Because that is just not true,
Please don't tell me Jennifer is in a better place, Though it is true, I want her here with me,
Don't tell me someday I'll hear hear her voice, see her face, Beyond today I cannot see.
Don’t tell me it is time to move on, Because I cannot, Don't tell me to face the fact that she, Jennfer is gone.
Because denial is something I can't stop, Don't tell me to be thankful for the time I had, Because I wanted more’.
Don't tell me when I am my old self you will be glad, I'll never be as I was before.
What you can tell me is you will be here for me, That you will listen when I talk of my child, You can share with me my precious memories of my one and only daughter.
You can even cry with me for a while, And please don't hesitate to say her name Because it is something I long to hear everyday.
Friend, please realize that I can never be the same. I am coping the best way I can.
Always, Jennifer's momma
Barbara-Always Jennifer's Momma
"Shine On You Crazy Diamond"