my daughter and her son...

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my daughter and her son...

Post by DeanW » Mon Mar 28, 2016 10:26 am

I posted earlier about "breaking the ice" at Easter....after everyone had left my daughter said, "Mom I am so grateful that my son is such a good kid. That he is respectful and isn't getting in trouble." She then hugged me and said, "I don't know how I could handle what you went through with me." Then she said, "It probably isn't fair that I got such a good kid after all the stress I gave you. But, I know I just couldn't handle it."

I'm thinking ..... I didn't "handle it." And, "why do I still feel stress about this?" I think she nailed it when she then said, "Of course if my son started acting out - it would be just as hard for you to see that as it would be for me." - Yeah, that's right, it would be. OMG...yes.

I look at my older grandson (almost 18) and am amazed that he is who he is. He has these conversations with us that confuse me - about philosophy and science and math equations - how did he develop these traits? I worry about some of them - like his mother, sensitive to an extreme - however, unlike his mother - he doesn't seem to be sensitive about other's perceived slights or judgments against him. He IS very concerned about possibly hurting others feelings. I don't know what the future will bring for him but he clearly has the potential to be a wonderful person.

The younger one is suddenly struggling with everything...friendships, school. When his older brother was his age (12) - the boys were living with us. My older grandson literally could not go to school. We spent 3 years of middle school slowly acclimating him to being around people; catching up with school work. One class in school the first year; 2 classes the 2nd year of middle school and then in the 8th grade he went full time - honors classes. But, this was intense work...coordination with the school and tutors and also his therapist.

I do think my daughter SEES the chaos that here lifestyle brought to me and to my husband. Not sure she gets how it has affected her sons and her siblings - and even herself.

It's just been a longer time than I thought it would be. I sincerely thought that once drug misuse and abuse was discontinued that recovery would be the next step. She gets that she cannot function in her life impaired by drugs but I keep looking for more "recovery"....

I am starting to think as part of MY recovery that I am no longer going to be looking at hers. I'm getting some needed tunnel vision...:)

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Re: my daughter and her son...

Post by grateful » Mon Mar 28, 2016 10:40 am

Yay!!!! It takes time to change what we can't change sometimes with loved ones and to see that which is possible for us to change. Love the thread, Dean. Thank you.
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Re: my daughter and her son...

Post by Walkingon » Mon Mar 28, 2016 10:55 pm

Hello DeanW
Yes. Looking at our own recovery. This is something I work on every day. The majority of my efforts and thoughts have been on my daughter's recovery. This has led to more than a decade of enabling drug use rather than my intent of helping her become sober. I am still early in my recovery but I do now recognize I have absolutely no control over her decisions and walk in the world.

I am getting older and I see the physical decline. (I am currently denying the mental decline). My mortality is front and center. I now choose to make better decisions for myself. It is my deepest wish my daughter will make good decisions for herself.

Thank you for sharing your experience.

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