I am so sorry. You tried to be present, to reach out to your son. I understand. The addict was in charge, but your son is in there somewhere and the pain of knowing that is difficult. Let go and let God, pray that your HP sends his mightiest angel to watch over your AS. I'll pray for your serenity, that you find the way to live in the eye of his storm, as nothing we do, or do not do, brings them to healing - that is his path alone. Take good care of you.
~ I ka lani malama ho iki mai la ka 'nani' ~
(In the heaven's brightness beauty is revealed)