I'm so sorry, and I know what you mean about having another bleeping growth opportunity.
After awhile, it would just be nice to sit around and marinate in not-learning and not-growing.
Now, here's what I think you might say to me if I were calling you:
"Did you call your sponsor? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm?"
I know what your grandmother always said about silver linings, so I am not going to repeat it because you may reach through the screen to kill me with your bare hands if I do. But I'm thinking it at you.
And I know what you mean about sadness here. But there's also hope and happiness and occasionally some joy here. As someone who has been down in the weeds many, many times, knowing you are here is always such a comfort to me when I am way, way down in the suckitude of it all. You have always towed me out of the weeds. I love you. Bigtime. Wish I could give you a big hug right now.