Sad tonight...

[DianeB]

Not really sure why. Maybe it is the full moon.

Maybe it is loss. So much loss in my life. Not just
from addiction. But, at a certain age loss of loved
ones becomes inevitable. There is now only me,
my husband, my sons. No one else left.

Maybe it is hearing the sadness here and feeling too
much of it. Not having any words to say that seem to
mean anything or convey my thoughts.

Maybe it is dwelling to much in the past and such a loss
of time and dreams. Loss of my grandchildren for so long.

Maybe it is watching my son struggle so with life on life's
terms and knowing I cannot do anything but love him.

Maybe it is because life just seems so damned hard some times
and I get tired of more lessons.

Maybe...maybe all of these things.

But for sure...I get the chance to make it better tomorrow.
No maybe's there. I get the chance and the choice.

Thanks for listening....

Hugs...

[Angelgirly2]

Dear Diane,
I am saying a prayer for you. I know it can be harder at times than at others. Although I haven't been here long I believe you have been influential in making others lives more hopeful, more bearable. And you said correctly there is tomorrow. I think of a quote: "weeping may last through the night, but joy comes in the morning."
I am very grateful that you are here, it has helped me to find this forum. And in doing so, touch many of those around me. One never really knows the reach they have.

Blessings.....

[Melissa]

Dearest Diane---

Let's blame the moon--tonight's moon is supposed to be the biggest full moon of the year.

On these moon beams, I am sending you tender, loving thoughts tonight.

But for sure...I get the chance to make it better tomorrow.
No maybe's there. I get the chance and the choice.

This is just ONE thing I love about you----your wonderful way of putting it in perspective.

(((Big Hugs))) I understand, my sister, I understand.

[Cheryl]

Dear Diane,

I am sending you a

BIG HUG

. And I also want to tell how much I appreciate all that do for us on the forum. The messages that you send us are always so calming and peaceful. You give us chances and choices every day. You are loved.

Cheryl

[daughter9moons]

Diane,

I am so sorry that you're sad tonight. I am one of those people that
believe that the moon affects our moods. After working with young
teens for so many years, I can't help but believe.

Thanks for being here for all of us.

I love you,
Sonia

[pabrown]

Diane I am sorry for your sadness. I feel it too. The days seem
so damn long sometimes. Where would this forum be without
your loving guidance and wisdom. Saying a prayer for you
tonight and blessing for a better tomorrow.

((((Hugs))))
Patsy

[carpediem]

Awwwwwww.
I'm so sorry, and I know what you mean about having another bleeping growth opportunity.
After awhile, it would just be nice to sit around and marinate in not-learning and not-growing.

Now, here's what I think you might say to me if I were calling you:
"Did you call your sponsor? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm?"

I know what your grandmother always said about silver linings, so I am not going to repeat it because you may reach through the screen to kill me with your bare hands if I do. But I'm thinking it at you.

And I know what you mean about sadness here. But there's also hope and happiness and occasionally some joy here. As someone who has been down in the weeds many, many times, knowing you are here is always such a comfort to me when I am way, way down in the suckitude of it all. You have always towed me out of the weeds. I love you. Bigtime. Wish I could give you a big hug right now.

xxxooo

[evergrowing]

Diane,

I wonder if it's the moon too. I have had a few days and heard it from others in my ftf tonight. It comes in waves. Life on life's terms is hard sometimes.

So glad you reached out for some love and support from your forum family. You have given so much to me and I am forever grateful. I'm holding you in my heart and prayers.

Love you!

[river rock]

I know you are right, there is another chance tomorrow.
I am sad too, but its because my friend that has cancer
had her surgery today, and is now on life support. A tumor
the size of a basketball was consuming her insides.My heart
aches for her family. So tonight I did a gratitude check, like
my very wise sponsor would encourage me to do, and I am at
peace that her HP has a reason,and a plan, and I am giving thanks
tonight for all that I have and i am. I am doing that gratitude list
over and over in my mind, and giving thanks. Tomorrow is another
day, a chance to lift someone up, do something for me, and give
thanks all over again. One day at a time.
With Love and appreciation for all you've taught me,
River rock

[wingover]

Love you, Diane. I am sorry sadness is weighing you down..

[Believer]

Dearest Diane, as you walk through your sadness and grieve the losses that are yours I am hoping that tomorrow you are blessed with an abundance of joy. I hope you take some special time for you to do whatever it is that brings this to you. Life on life's terms is a challenge and even some-days seemingly impossible. Yet more often than not we find that this too shall pass. You are such a blessing to so many may you receive all that you have given ten fold. On a lighter note the full moon explains why my grandson has been so difficult today. I too am ready for a better day tomorrow. Lots of love coming you way from me and so many others.

sweet dreams
marie

[judyg]

This too shall pass. . . in fact it already has. Today you get to decide whether you need to carry that sadness or let it go. Either way is up to you and either way is fine.

XXOO

Judy

[carpediem]

PS: the phone is right next to me at all times...

[kathyf]

Dear Diane,

There's one thing for certain. Your words always mean something to me. I'm sorry you are feeling sad, I guess some days are just like that. Lordy knows I've had enough of them myself. Sending you big hugs and tons of love and appreciation for simply being here. I'm grateful for you.

Love,
Kathy

[mcollins5]

Diane,

I agree - it's the moon. After tonight, things should get better.
You give us so much hope, wisdom, and strength, I was surprised
to see that "Sad tonight" was written by you....Diane, sad? No way!
Thank you so much for all that you do, and I hope that
your feeling of sadness passes soon.

Love,

Mary