drained

[dmom]

I went to my first f2f meetings Tuesday. It was very good for me. I am working to keep my focus on myself.
Clinging to this forum, my sponsor, and my HP has brought me through the last couple days.
I really am too tired to even tell the story anymore, you all know it and live it too.
My AS is back home, (jft) he walked 12 miles to get home because he was out of money, gas, no cell phone.
He apoligized. Insisted on drug testing. (didnt mean much to me, meth leaves the system quickly)
Anyway I am keeping my "expectations" squashed. It hurt so badly this last time with the chaos. I am done.
I still have no words to post on other's posts. I just still feel empty, drained.
So very thankful for this family here.
I reached out and you guys were there.

love ya
dmom

[DianeB]

Wendy:

I understand that feeling. Just devoid of feeling
anymore. The pain becomes to much to deal with.

I used to feel it each time my son went back out
there. He would come home, try and fail. Then
he would go. Watching him go was so painful.

But, each time I learned more about detachment
and powerlessness.

I learned more about living my own life for me and
leaving him to his HP.

I hear you.

Hugs...

[Melissa]

My Dear Wendy---

Sometime there simply are no words. No energy. Nothing more to give. Drained

It is very good that you were able to come back to your "filling station" to let us love on YOU and give you encouragement.

You are doing what you need to be doing--right now, at this point in time. If it is to be doing nothing--then rest on it. You will be restored.

(((hugs~~and love)))

[mms5n304]

Wendy,

Take care of yourself. I get drained also with my AS in opiates. For now yourson is home, get rest, I says to myself it is ok to be drained, I just try and get the energy back my sleeping. JFT.

Love you,

Melanie

[evergrowing]

We are here. We get it. You are not alone. Keep taking care of you. You are so worth it. You are working your program and it shows. Love you!

[river rock]

I ve been there, I know that drained feeling , I
wish I was closer to give you a big hug and say
it will be ok, but I dont know that,You are in
charge of you. I see so much growth in you lately,
I see you working hard. We are here, lean on us
anytime.
love you River rock

[Cheryl]

Dear Wendy,

It's just one day at a time as we look for our answers. And it is not easy, and it leaves us drained of all energy. My prayers are with you. I'm here for you.

Cheryl

[Gerilyn]

I've been there too and I know that feeling all too well. It's exhausting. This disease is truly exhausting on us, the loved ones. Get rest, stay focused on your program, and know we are here for you. Sending you hugs and support,
Gerilyn

[kathyf]

Wendy,

It is draining. Very. Know that I'm thinking of you and supporting you on your journey.

Love,
Kathy

[linda.f]

Wendy,

Congratulations on your first f2f meetings.

Progress not perfection, moving one foot in front of each other.

Taking it One Day at a Time and knowing that we can all lean on this loving

support is recovery in action.

We all do it in our own way and in our own time.

xo

[drinkingwater]

Sweet Wendy,
I know that drained feeling and it's awful. You feel like you will never be happy or have energy again. It's a struggle just to tie your shoes! I was a walking zombie for a long time.

The good news is that, like with all things, this too shall pass. I'm so glad you went to a face to face meeting, I hope it was helpful. Hang in there, my friend. You're strong. You can do this.

::hugs::
Lindsey

[lucky43]

Wendy. As you already know, we are all here and you are not alone. Drained, exhausted, sad, but here. Hoping that JFT it will feel a little better.

Do something nice for you today. Anything. Anything at all. You deserve it, we all do!

(((HUGS)))

Genny

[callieco]

Wendy a big (((((Hug)))) to you. I know what it feels like to have no words to offer to others. Your son is home and breathing thank god...to think of going through all that chaos again is draining. I am so glad you are here and that you have a f2f meeting to go to.