I went to my first f2f meetings Tuesday. It was very good for me. I am working to keep my focus on myself.
Clinging to this forum, my sponsor, and my HP has brought me through the last couple days.
I really am too tired to even tell the story anymore, you all know it and live it too.
My AS is back home, (jft) he walked 12 miles to get home because he was out of money, gas, no cell phone.
He apoligized. Insisted on drug testing. (didnt mean much to me, meth leaves the system quickly)
Anyway I am keeping my "expectations" squashed. It hurt so badly this last time with the chaos. I am done.
I still have no words to post on other's posts. I just still feel empty, drained.
So very thankful for this family here.
I reached out and you guys were there.
Learning to let go..............with love